love

i've known love for all my life in a form of you,
love introduces itself by your name,
it's smile curves as broad as your smile,
it's eyebrows are as thick as yours,
and oh the way it angers too

i learn to speak the name of love in a form of your gaze,
love calls me by my name,
as soothing as the winter wind blows,
and as frightening as the nightmare would go,
oh it's getting chilly on my spines,
Lord, tell me, is this the meant to be or just lesson to learn?

but love has to leave early,
love has somewhere to go,
love needs to change,
so it disappears

eventually love will come again knocking around the healed cuttings,
maybe in a form of your curls,
or maybe in a form of your breath,
or maybe love transforms to another form

maybe love will come in the form of the way a leaf dries,
or maybe it will pop out of a hot sauna spa,
or maybe it lost, still finding it's way on a map,
or maybe...love won't come again at all.

05/01/2020

01.30 a.m.

Teka-Teki

semalam kamu datang dalam mimpi,
ditanyalah aku kenapa lekas pergi,
ditanyalah ia pada bagian mana yang belum dimengerti?

—pagi, siang, sore, malam hari aku pahami, coba amati.


dmv. 17/01/19

Waktu

ada banyak rahasia Bumi yang masih kabut dan kabur

pada waktu siang aku merasa,

pada waktu malam aku menangis

segala pikiran yang pernah terlintas tak jua membuatku puas

mungkin masih butuh waktu untuk memahami rencana Tuhan

—someday, someday.

dmv // 280119

Hilang, Menghilang

esok kita akan mengering di hamparan bukit fana
berdagang tawa seakan luka hanya teman lama
nanti pastikan ku jahit jiwaku di mata coklatmu
biar hilang kamu
hilang aku bersamamu

-dmv.

03.03

Benteng

Kadang aku kesal,
tembok tinggi di sekelilingku,
nutupin pandangan!

Tapi toh aku juga suka,
hanya sedikit angin yang menerpa masuk tanpa permisi.

dmv // July, 2018

Ruang

Padahal di suatu ruang,
Ada celah bebas dua-puluh-empat jam,
Di sana ada aku,
Tenggelam sedalam-dalamnya

—ada juga kamu, mengapung tak tentu arahnya.

dmv 23/06/18 01.18 a.m.

Distraksi

Kupu-kupu cepat pergi

Cepat lari, cepat jauh

Rasanya terlalu dalam

Kupu-kupu tak mau pergi

Kenapa semakin lekat?

Jangan lekat, jangan dekat

Kupu-kupu tak jua pergi

Kalaunya ingin tetap

Tolong jangan mendesak

-dmv, 21/10/18, 19:55

Ego

Mari turunkan ego sedikit,

Sedikit saja,

Sedikit lagi,

Sampai hilang tanpa tuan.

—kalau yang kamu cari kebahagiaan, tolong turunkan egomu.

Shall Thee?

Please do come here,

O fairy godmother!

I’m on the edge of killing myself,

Shall thee ought to watch and see?

—i don’t care how you get here, get here if you can.

Hitam

Hitamku kian setia

Temani bayang yang tak hilang-hilang

Sebentar..

Sebentar lagi..

“Sana menghilang!”

Malah melekatlah ia

Hhh

Semoga pagi tepat waktu

22.10.18 // 01.48
-dmv

Intrepid #3

One time, she's curious
She search all the way long
Of an answer has long to be answered
Then it answers so sudden that she doesn't know what to do
And she runs
And runs
And runs
And runs

  —  When love has come, it comes 
            with all the consequences  — 

dmv

02.04 a.m.

Singgah

Lewatnya sekali, tak kasat mata

Lewatnya kedua, aku diam

Lain-lain, sekali dua kali

Ia bertanya, aku meragu

Datang ke sini, bawa ke mari

Singgahnya ia, tenangnya aku

Harapku jangan ia tetap

12.42 a.m.

-dmv

Senja, Katanya

"Ungu dari mana, hitam gini kok!" 
serunya pada hari Jumat itu.

Di luar pagar rendah berwarna merah tak jauh dari tempat kami berdiri, riuh lalu lalang sepeda motor saling berlomba dan tak mau mengalah.
Tak mau kalah, sunyi kami pun ikut menggema pada hari Jumat itu sebelum ia memutuskan untuk mengalah pada sunyi.

Aku lalu tersenyum.

"Kamu cantik kalau tersenyum"

Aku tersenyum lagi.

Selang beberapa kesunyian yang menggema kembali, aku pun memutuskan berjalan keluar pagar.

Beberapa langkah, aku mendongak melihat langit senja kala itu yang berwarna manis.

Dan tak lupa menoleh ke belakang melihat pagar rendah berwarna merah dan dengan hanya bebatuan yang mengisi hampanya tempat itu.

-dmv

Cliche

"Set your dreams, have your life figured out," they say,
as I sit here wondering why the sky would go striking orange.

"Grow up, act like your age," they say,
as I roll and tearing myself up because of laughing too much on my favorite TV show.

"I wanna be happy," I say.
—a small dream is a dream too.

Intrepid #2

"No, this isn't you," she said, as she looks at her fiery eyes reflection from the mirror.
Then one second, the look in her eyes become empty -- the kind of emptiness as if anything in the world has lost its ability to make her happy.
She's been through a lot. The world has crushed her passions, her ability to feel happy, her self. She blame the world for it. She thinks the world owe her something.

"1..2..3.." she counts the ticking on the clock as she breaths hardly and eyes-closed.
"4..5..6.." she keeps counting and counting and counting.

Suddenly, her eyes are wide open. The fiery look came back. But now there's a bit of determination glare comes from that fiery tiny eyes.

"This isn't you," she said looking to herself at the mirror.
"I'm going to make you so proud from now on."

01.15 a.m.

-dmv

Secangkir Teh dan Mi Godog

Secangkir teh dan mi godog malam itu
Ada yang baru di pintu malam itu
Ada yang hilang ditutup keranda itu
Ada yang nyata di udara malam itu
Ada yang lekat di secangkir teh dan mi godog malam itu

-dmv

Di Taman Belakang

 Di taman belakang ada cerita,

Ditatapnya jatuh ke pangkuan bumi

Di taman belakang ada cerita,

Diberinya kemari dan dibuainya lari

Di taman belakang ada cerita,

Direlakannya mentari dirundung kelabu

(D.M.V)

loc: taman belakang rumahku,

photos were taken & edited by me.

Just When I Thought Everything Could Be Okay

So lately I’ve been thinking about things

About how everything goes

Guess theres truth in this old saying,

‘You’re here to risk your heart out’

Means you have to be ready for the upcoming things

Shit happens,

and it will always have been this way ever-since before

You just gotta let yourself get used to it

And that you’ll be no surprised,

of everything that coming in your way

-
00.06

Diam Sajalah

Orang bilang pentingnya bersuara

Untuk berpendapat

Untuk berdebat

Untuk berteriak

Untuk memaki

Untuk menyakiti

Untuk...apa?

-

22.31

Intrepid #1

Langit sedari tadi sudah menunjukkan sendunya
Aku di tengah kawan bersorak
Mencari-cari waktu dan kamu
Kiranya kau dapat berhenti sejenak
Sudikah kau lihat rupaku?